No not really, but I was just looking at Hazel's blog and she writes about making a mood board.. thats such a good idea! The title of my blog today should be mood:procrastinating instead! I have much to catch up on at uni, but i have been exercising and am just cooling down.
I have started jogging! Would you believe it? I started the c25k program.. downloaded the free podcasts from google, a Robert Ullery made them... thanks Rob! Its bloody hard.. you are supposed to do three sessions a week, he has made 9 podcasts I think, so while I technically should be on week 2 by now, ive done my 5th session of week one. My calf muscles hurt so much (they dont now) and its a real push to move myself into each of the intervals.. but im pushing myself so I hope eventually it all pays off!
I can see the difference in my body myself at the moment, even if it is not visible to others - my legs are a bit thinner, and they seem a bit more lumpy, as though the fat breaking up and dissolving is causing them to look a bit cellulite-y.. cos i dont have cellulite! Noooooo ;p
My face is also a bit thinner, I think one of my chins has melted away, and my cheekbones are starting to peek through my chubby cheeks ;)
I am happy to say that I have lost my first 5.5kgs on the BLC program... so what Im doing is working. This make me feel really happy, as losing all this extra weight finally feels achieveable! I just have to keep at it!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Thursday, April 15, 2010
15th April 2010 at 101.2kgs
Omg, I cant believe I'm actually posting this... I dont have the guts to put it on the biggest loser website... or facebook! I want to put it out there somewhere.... so here I am ... there must be something wrong with my camera... you can tell by the split screen effect... and I dont look like that!
see you in about 2 months :)
Everyone but me
Sometimes it feels like everyone is successful but me. I need to stop comparing myself to other people... and I need to remind myself that I am awesome and have achieved great things. I can't pretend my life is perfect.. lame! But i wish it was better.
Dont get me wrong.. I count my blessings. My kids are beautiful and healthy, albeit little psychos (seriously, they dont get it from me! SURE!) I have somewhere to live, food in the fridge, and a (kind of, but not really) free education... I just wish that I was better, more successful. Richer? Definately skinnier. A good mum.
I guess Im just procrastinating, freaking out cos I have an exam tomorrow night, and Im behind in my studying, and im tired. My landlord wants my parents broken down landcruiser out of the yard by next friday, and the mobile phone bought for me about a month ago is already broken.. thanks to milk.
I need to toilet train my kids, but Im not patient enough. Monique isnt really interested and Zeke is just a pain in the butt.
ok.. take a breath. No more whingeing!
I havent yet reported an awesome weigh-in result. .... I lost 2.9kgs! After my last post, I actually put on another 1.5kgs, lovingly, indulgently through Easter and my birthday.. But since the 6th of April, Ive been on an exercise kick... and last monday (12th) i weighed in at 101kg.. I was so happy about that! Still am, mind you. So I've tried to keep it up, and am hoping to break into double digits next monday.. we'll see.
I have also learnt a new recipe.. low-fat chicken parmagiana (how do you spell that?) .. its awesome and so yummy and soooo easy! chicken, ham, salsa and cheese... team it with salad, you really cant go wrong ;p
And Im going to start the couch to 5k program on monday.. running! well, a slow jog holding my boobs at first, but yeah.. getting there :) you know what.. im gonna go and get a picture of me now.. so i can see how gorgeous I am (;p) and compare it in about 2 months time.....
Dont get me wrong.. I count my blessings. My kids are beautiful and healthy, albeit little psychos (seriously, they dont get it from me! SURE!) I have somewhere to live, food in the fridge, and a (kind of, but not really) free education... I just wish that I was better, more successful. Richer? Definately skinnier. A good mum.
I guess Im just procrastinating, freaking out cos I have an exam tomorrow night, and Im behind in my studying, and im tired. My landlord wants my parents broken down landcruiser out of the yard by next friday, and the mobile phone bought for me about a month ago is already broken.. thanks to milk.
I need to toilet train my kids, but Im not patient enough. Monique isnt really interested and Zeke is just a pain in the butt.
ok.. take a breath. No more whingeing!
I havent yet reported an awesome weigh-in result. .... I lost 2.9kgs! After my last post, I actually put on another 1.5kgs, lovingly, indulgently through Easter and my birthday.. But since the 6th of April, Ive been on an exercise kick... and last monday (12th) i weighed in at 101kg.. I was so happy about that! Still am, mind you. So I've tried to keep it up, and am hoping to break into double digits next monday.. we'll see.
I have also learnt a new recipe.. low-fat chicken parmagiana (how do you spell that?) .. its awesome and so yummy and soooo easy! chicken, ham, salsa and cheese... team it with salad, you really cant go wrong ;p
And Im going to start the couch to 5k program on monday.. running! well, a slow jog holding my boobs at first, but yeah.. getting there :) you know what.. im gonna go and get a picture of me now.. so i can see how gorgeous I am (;p) and compare it in about 2 months time.....
Sunday, April 11, 2010
a love only found in dreams
I had the strangest dream last night... i thought about it a bit after I woke up.. i reckon there are two types of dreams - reflective and predictive... the reflective ones are wierd stories made up of fragments of memories and your days and the wierd synchronicity that dances between. Predictive dreams are just that, but for me, far and few between.
Last night I was a time traveller, and running from something. I was on a tour of a town with a concentration camp.. and then i was the one being chased and hiding. There was a shop, and I hid, wearing a pinjab (is that what the head dress is called?) to hide my face from guards. I hide behind the counter, on my back and find a secret door. The shop owner has a hexagon of rooms, each suited to a different time, and I find that I change depending on the time I am in. I fall in love with this shopkeeper, who for some reason only known to my psyche, is the evil nazi guy from Inglorious Basterds. Hmm. Anyway, he is also being chased by someone, and it turns out he is taking the blame. I try to be with him, to tell him I love him but he is not listening to me. I take the chance and kiss him three times. Im then home, in Frangipani St, (where i grew up) and he is gone, he wont talk to me. I am with three other brunette girls, in the playground of my primary school, and a woman and child come to us, and the women tells us someone is on the phone for Rachel. The man is in a car, one the phone. It turns out that I am the one he wants to speak to. I am quiet cos Im heartbroken. He says i dont sound the same. We speak in German. I tell him Im quiet because my heart is injured. It hurts me so much. I ask him why we cant be together, why we cant just hug. He says no, I put the phone down, hoping to catch him in the car, without him realising Ive left the phone. I run outside, but the car is gone. I quickly run back inside to the phone, but the woman is hanging it up. I panic and run outside again, which this time is in the backyard at Frangipani st again. Iam calling out to him "Willie," I cry. Im devastated. Then I see him hiding behind a tree... he is much younger, but it is him. We run to eachother and embrace... I am so happy. So in love.
.....
yeah. go figure.
Well tomorrow is weigh in day again.. Im hoping for a loss because Ive put on 2 kgs in the last week (1.5kgs since my last post).. ive exercised my darndest too! Ive been going for walks every morning and doing the Wii EA Active or Wii Fit Plus afterwards... ive been watching what I eat too, making sure its less than the energy im burning by living. :)
As far as my goals go.. Im a bit further from the less than 100kgs one.. but im getting there.... i havent started running yet, but im doing the warm up walk ;p I havent done enough housework but I plan too (always plan to, but I should be studying) and I have made some healthy meals this week.. pizza potato bake and healthy tacos... i even had a smaller serving of spag bog tonight, with heaps of salad... im so looking forward to weighing in tomorrow... I hope Im not disappointed!
Last night I was a time traveller, and running from something. I was on a tour of a town with a concentration camp.. and then i was the one being chased and hiding. There was a shop, and I hid, wearing a pinjab (is that what the head dress is called?) to hide my face from guards. I hide behind the counter, on my back and find a secret door. The shop owner has a hexagon of rooms, each suited to a different time, and I find that I change depending on the time I am in. I fall in love with this shopkeeper, who for some reason only known to my psyche, is the evil nazi guy from Inglorious Basterds. Hmm. Anyway, he is also being chased by someone, and it turns out he is taking the blame. I try to be with him, to tell him I love him but he is not listening to me. I take the chance and kiss him three times. Im then home, in Frangipani St, (where i grew up) and he is gone, he wont talk to me. I am with three other brunette girls, in the playground of my primary school, and a woman and child come to us, and the women tells us someone is on the phone for Rachel. The man is in a car, one the phone. It turns out that I am the one he wants to speak to. I am quiet cos Im heartbroken. He says i dont sound the same. We speak in German. I tell him Im quiet because my heart is injured. It hurts me so much. I ask him why we cant be together, why we cant just hug. He says no, I put the phone down, hoping to catch him in the car, without him realising Ive left the phone. I run outside, but the car is gone. I quickly run back inside to the phone, but the woman is hanging it up. I panic and run outside again, which this time is in the backyard at Frangipani st again. Iam calling out to him "Willie," I cry. Im devastated. Then I see him hiding behind a tree... he is much younger, but it is him. We run to eachother and embrace... I am so happy. So in love.
.....
yeah. go figure.
Well tomorrow is weigh in day again.. Im hoping for a loss because Ive put on 2 kgs in the last week (1.5kgs since my last post).. ive exercised my darndest too! Ive been going for walks every morning and doing the Wii EA Active or Wii Fit Plus afterwards... ive been watching what I eat too, making sure its less than the energy im burning by living. :)
As far as my goals go.. Im a bit further from the less than 100kgs one.. but im getting there.... i havent started running yet, but im doing the warm up walk ;p I havent done enough housework but I plan too (always plan to, but I should be studying) and I have made some healthy meals this week.. pizza potato bake and healthy tacos... i even had a smaller serving of spag bog tonight, with heaps of salad... im so looking forward to weighing in tomorrow... I hope Im not disappointed!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
31st March 2010
ok, so here is my confession..... I am 102.4 kgs...
That's not me. I'm not meant to be like this.. I gained 30kgs by having 2 kids in the space of two years. Im busy. I don't get much sleep. I don't know how to cook. I don't have any money to buy healthy foods... I'm tired. My boobs are too big to run. I don't have the right shoes. I need an iPod. It's to hot. It's too early.. i'll do it tomorrow. I'll get a bike instead. We have to clear the garage out. I'll use our gym in winter. I should be studying. I don't have time. I gotta go to work. Allan is still asleep.
That's pretty much all the excuses I can think of. But IM SO SICK OF BEING FAT!!
So I have tried a lot of diets... nothing really works... I tried tony fergusson, weightwatchers, celebrity slim... I cant seem to stick to anything. I've also recently joined up with the Biggest Loser Club. I don't watch the show. But the website is awesome (and no, im not being paid to say this).. my favorite thing is the diary, where you can track the calories you eat.. so you can eat normal meals, you just have to make sure you stay within the limit.... in the first 2 weeks i lost 2.7 kgs... but then last week i gained 500g.. thanks to overindulging before the Lady Gaga concert! the whole weekend ended with KFC on Sunday night ..
So I felt like writing about it. I used to write alot. I used to write a dream diary. Sometimes I think I should put effort into doing it again... some of the dreams I have a bizarre.... I can't even think of any right now.
This first post is pretty boring.. but maybe it will get better!
Here are some goals:
2. Get under 100kgs
Well at this point I have 2.5 kgs to go... not likely in the next week or two, at my rate, especially with Easter coming! But I will get there..!
3. Get active!
Do some housework... ride a bike.... play with the kids... take them to the park.... get into new habits...
4. Learn a new recipe each week...
I used to look at payday as a treat day.. but I think I will use it to learn a new healthy recipe to add to my repetoire...(how do you spell that?)
Those are my goals for April.... so here goes!
That's not me. I'm not meant to be like this.. I gained 30kgs by having 2 kids in the space of two years. Im busy. I don't get much sleep. I don't know how to cook. I don't have any money to buy healthy foods... I'm tired. My boobs are too big to run. I don't have the right shoes. I need an iPod. It's to hot. It's too early.. i'll do it tomorrow. I'll get a bike instead. We have to clear the garage out. I'll use our gym in winter. I should be studying. I don't have time. I gotta go to work. Allan is still asleep.
That's pretty much all the excuses I can think of. But IM SO SICK OF BEING FAT!!
So I have tried a lot of diets... nothing really works... I tried tony fergusson, weightwatchers, celebrity slim... I cant seem to stick to anything. I've also recently joined up with the Biggest Loser Club. I don't watch the show. But the website is awesome (and no, im not being paid to say this).. my favorite thing is the diary, where you can track the calories you eat.. so you can eat normal meals, you just have to make sure you stay within the limit.... in the first 2 weeks i lost 2.7 kgs... but then last week i gained 500g.. thanks to overindulging before the Lady Gaga concert! the whole weekend ended with KFC on Sunday night ..
So I felt like writing about it. I used to write alot. I used to write a dream diary. Sometimes I think I should put effort into doing it again... some of the dreams I have a bizarre.... I can't even think of any right now.
This first post is pretty boring.. but maybe it will get better!
Here are some goals:
- Start running....
2. Get under 100kgs
Well at this point I have 2.5 kgs to go... not likely in the next week or two, at my rate, especially with Easter coming! But I will get there..!
3. Get active!
Do some housework... ride a bike.... play with the kids... take them to the park.... get into new habits...
4. Learn a new recipe each week...
I used to look at payday as a treat day.. but I think I will use it to learn a new healthy recipe to add to my repetoire...(how do you spell that?)
Those are my goals for April.... so here goes!
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